How Am I?

Trying to try, tired,
wondering why,
wondering about my life's call,
wondering, wondering about it all,
wondering, internalities thundering,
I wonder if I seem poised
despite all my inside noise,
wondering about every choice,
wondering with my inside voice,
proud and ashamed of my quirks,
proud of my line of work,
wondering about the concept of fun,
while I'm trying to get things done,
I guess the word "wondering" sums it up,
wondering how to view my overflowing cup.