Idea For Skit
May Pesach come to us as a redemption. May it be more than a burdensome time of plans, preparations, expectations, more than glorified busyness. May we feel Divine release from what we are enslaved to. May we see the answers that we've cried for come to us. May we be blessed to cooperate and let our redemption unfold.
I hesitate. That's a lot of what I do. Sometimes it serves me well, sometimes not so much. And there are odd times when in retrospect I needed to be more hesitant. This applies to my writing here, and to everything.
I think one of the greatest writers who ever lived is Dante. I have read “The Divine Comedy” many times. The main thing he is saying is that you are not punished for your sins. You are punished by them. When you have done something that is not the best you could have done, you’ve changed yourself. What you have become, that is your punishment. - Anne Perry
One of the zero
Writing is always
As Translated Here
Monday 1:43 PM - Lacking time to write, yet I feel I should. So much to do. But writing is like breathing. I am running from recommendation wring to teaching to guiding to meetings. Staff meeting in fifteen.
Remember: despite how open, peaceful, and loving you attempt to be, people can only meet you, as deeply as they’ve met themselves. — Matt Kahn
7:26 AM - Lately I have been answering the question of what to write and where to write it by writing here. I am trying right now to do a free flow. That reminds me of a story I heard Rabbi Frand tell on Shabbos (as part of the
Fri Feb 19 - 11ish AM (Forgot to note the exact time when I wrote this) Sometimes my work feels non stop to me, bottomless, and ever fulfilling. Four tests this week, two of them today. The teaching is balanced with my caseload of guidees. Pausing now for a second after giving tests to classes in a way that involved them overlapping and taking some time from another teacher because it's Friday and it's science testing week and I went out my way to schedule this test the day after their bio test. And there were two kids who need and are mandated to do the test orally, And one student was overwhelmed and left the paper blank, And and and.
7:07 AM - Time fascinates me as I try to not just to squeak through it, but to use it, and often - like now, to muse it.
Wed Feb 10
A man and woman marry. The man owns a donkey. He and his wife journey. He has her ride on the donkey and he follows behind. A stranger stops him: "You need to balance things; look out for yourself too. "So he rides on the donkey and has his wife walk behind. Another man stops him: "What's wrong with you? Letting your wife walk while you ride the donkey!" So he and his wife both walk behind the donkey. Someone stops him: It's ridiculous that you both walk and the donkey walks with no-one riding on her." So he and his wife get on the donkey, A Bedouin from a passing caravan stops him: "You can't see your donkey's face, but he's clearly about to be crushed from the weight of the two of you." So the man and his wife get off the donkey and together they carry the donkey the rest of the way.
I like this inside joke. You have to know the footsteps story to get it.
I'm grateful for this stay-cation day at home, with Leonard Lopate on the radio. He interviewed Ian Buruma about his new book which features letters between his grandparents. The grandfather was very funny and the grandma more complicated, so he puts it in one moment of this interview. 45 was their code for being Jewish, he doesn't know why.
Here's a poem of his that I find striking.
If you are cold, tea will warm you;
By Edwin Arlington Robinson
One day I hope, please G-d, to write a piece about stories including all the great insights out there that I can find. There are many great quotes and they are part of my story.
Four hours till vacation. Many people, in one way or another, have prematurely upped and gone. I'm grabbing a pocketful of solitude. And breathing. So many physical realities can be notched down on our totem pole of things that matter. And noises. And even thoughts. I'm praying from personal space. I'm reaching back for old dreams and realizing we're still connected. I'm honing in on a wisp of fresh energy and placing it in a jar so I will remember.
I have liked blogging from the start. Been doing it a long time because I like it, believe in it.
Real feel temperatures
By Max Ehrman
Grabbing a moment to write. Tired with a lot on my plate. That is good. And yet. There's a saying i saw and liked - stop the glorification of busy. Life is important, I don't like missing it.
Beli ayin harah, I've been working at the same main place for 20 years, blogging here for 11, on this planet for... Keeping track can be tricky, so many kinds of tricky. And they say age is just a number but nothing is just an anthing. My work in intense and non-stop and yet I'm taking a moment for a spiritual lunch break and coming home here to write. Writing is a form of exercise, the kind of exercise I favor. I love writing and as in the slide story I've told here several times over the years I sometimes feel safer doing something my in my own way. And so while I seem to be just writing here there is no such thing as just writing.