Ever Since Sinai (click for link)

Sometimes when I wake up I'm still partially in dreamland. I am so close to that city that I remember not only the dreams I just had, but I also am filled with pieces from other visits. This morning, a few minutes out, I remembered a rabbi not prone to giving blessings calling me over from a large group standing around him and placing his hands on my head and saying a heartfelt blessing for something I want in my life. Then there was a Shabbos meal in dreamland in which a single male said that he was at this gathering, with this crowd, not for himself but more-so for his sister who was single and older than him, looking for someone for her. Then there was a return visit to my grandparents' apartment. This time there was a crew of us assessing the place and the problem of mold that had taken over the walls...

School/work day begins to fade, though I will carry it for hours and hours and days and days and then I'll actually be back in the field. I need to start eating farfel on Shabbos to remember to let bygones be ferfalen. And I need to take zman cheiruteinu seriously, on the deepest most real level.

It got really warm on Thursday and I was sitting at about 1:45 (when my father - HSLABW - called to say hello), doing Torah Guidance on the balcony. I had a really nice talk with a student who told me he liked what I said on the Junior trip in December. I told him that I hadn't heard much feedback on it. He wisely explained that teenagers (people in general) don't usually give unsolicited feedback to educational programs. They just move on, as it should be (as Mary Poppins tells her talking bird, who is sad that the family she helped will move on and not think much about her)

I have been up since 7ish, having slept from 2ish till then. I forced myself to go to the library right after selling chameitz post davening. And I've been here ever since. Now it's time to move on, as it should be.